Tuesday, February 28, 2006
It seems that this month is harder for me than the last month. I miss my gram so much. I remind myself of what it was like for her, she was in pain and I know that she is in a better place now. While that brings me some comfort, I still have an ache in my heart from the void. She is always on my mind.
My aunt called and told me I could come over there and get some stuff. She asked what I had given Gram, so she could give it back to me. Thing is I don't care. Nothing matters now, I don't want any material thing. I just want my Gram. I picked up a penny off the ground yesterday. It reminded me of her. She always used to say that about pennies on the ground--that they were "pennies from heaven."
I catch myself thinking and almost saying "I'll ask Gram what she thinks..." then I remember that she is not here. I just wish I could have one more day with her.
I forgot to add that the little boy who needs bone marrow has gotten a match from someone's cord blood. That is a miracle. I am so happy that they found a match. I just wanted to update on that post.
I have thought about changing my blog name as, I had mentioned but I would assume that people could still find me. Not that I care so much, but I would feel better about it not having my name. Not sure yet.
I had to take Caleb to the doctor yesterday. He has a horrible cough. The Dr. said he was wheezing, so he gave me a prescription for the Albuterol Inhaler. He hates it. You have to keep the mask on him for 6 breaths. Umm on a 21 month old? YEAH RIGHT!